go away.

and what scares me the most, is that I don’t hate you. I’m supposed to hate you and see...

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 16:11:18 -0400

and what scares me the most, is that I don’t hate you. I’m supposed to hate you and see everything that is you as a flaw… but I don’t. I certainly don’t love you, but I’m scared because I can’t bring myself to hate you.

¿Quieres Bailar?: I want to live in a brick flat, with a mattress on the floor covered...

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 15:52:41 -0500

¿Quieres Bailar?: I want to live in a brick flat, with a mattress on the floor covered...:

onefinalhurrah:

I want to live in a brick flat, with a mattress on the floor covered by a soft sheet, two pillows and a quilt; overlooking a window. I want to wake up and take pictures; I’ll take pictures of my girlfriend in her nude beauty, pictures of my cat being a dumb cat, and all that other indie shit. I…

they’re going to ask me, “do you miss her?” I will say yes. they will ask me,...

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 21:24:16 -0500

they’re going to ask me, “do you miss her?”
I will say yes.
they will ask me, “do you still love her?”
I will say I do.
they will ask me, “why did you let her go?”
I won’t know why.

just stay. maybe things will get better. leave. people never change; this will never work out.

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 00:01:42 -0500

just stay. maybe things will get better.

leave. people never change; this will never work out.

v0tum: what a shitty way to start off a new year.

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 01:50:51 -0500

v0tum:

what a shitty way to start off a new year.

Today was wonderful. I met Carrie’s dad, I got wonderful presents, and I got to see a happy...

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 23:43:16 -0500

Today was wonderful. I met Carrie’s dad, I got wonderful presents, and I got to see a happy family celebrate Christmas together. That was nice.

i just want to give a quick shout out to my best friend. thank you for being yourself; amazing. i...

Thu, 06 Dec 2012 01:14:52 -0500

i just want to give a quick shout out to my best friend. thank you for being yourself; amazing. i love you.

things are finally turning around

Tue, 20 Nov 2012 10:54:39 -0500

it was like a test. the hardest test life has thrown at me, and I think I passed. maybe not with an A, but I passed

I feel like you don’t even listen to me… I don’t think you understand. All I do is...

Thu, 08 Nov 2012 23:01:05 -0500

I feel like you don’t even listen to me… I don’t think you understand. All I do is work. School, Tom’s, chores. I have practically no down-time. And my days off? I spend with you. I love you, yes, i love you so much. But i swear you go out of your way to start fights. you always pick the hard road instead of the easy one. why won’t you do something for me, for once? Please? Do something special for me, be nice to me, give me a surprise backrub, surprise me on my day off by coming over… anything, please. I just want something in return. i want you to put more effort into this. I’m working so hard, i have no time to rest, and i don’t think you understand that.

just be nice to me. take a step back and look at all the things i have done and do for you. not to be a tool, but it’s been a lot.

and i’ve done it because I wanted to, yes. but that’s because I love you. i just want you to love me back the way i love you.

please, just take it easy on me? Okay, console me? I need you to support me… I feel like i’m on crutches and you find reasons to kick them out from under me. please Carrie… please. do something for me…

I’m getting really bad… Why? Why is it getting worse and worse… Why am /I/ getting...

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 22:49:00 -0400

I’m getting really bad… Why? Why is it getting worse and worse… Why am /I/ getting worse… please no.

I just need you to have faith in me so I can have faith in me so we can get this right.

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 00:26:24 -0400

I just need you to have faith in me so I can have faith in me so we can get this right.

shirleytempletheplant: I love you so much. I don’t know what to say. you are so perfect in my eyes,...

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 00:00:43 -0400

shirleytempletheplant:

I love you so much. I don’t know what to say. you are so perfect in my eyes, and I don’t think I could ever see you any differently. I want all of those things with you, I want our lives together to be just like a fairy tale. I want you to always be here for me and I’ll always be here for you. I want to see you grow and become an adult, and I want to see our children want to be just like their daddy. I want to see little Jesses running around in our backyard. I want this, so much, forever. I really hope things never change for us, but if things change, I hope we can learn to adapt to the changes and still love eachother nonetheless. I love you so much.

I love you

shirleytempletheplant: I am going to marry this girl *sing...

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 00:00:21 -0400

shirleytempletheplant:

I am going to marry this girl
*sing song voice*

shirleytempletheplant: Holy shit Carrie. Every thing about you feels just oh so right. The way we...

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 23:59:27 -0400

shirleytempletheplant:

Holy shit Carrie. Every thing about you feels just oh so right. The way we hold hands. the way your body fits so well with mine, your lips on mine. Every thing. It’s just so fucking wonderful. We argue too damn much, but when we realize that we’re being stubborn dorks this shit it great.

shirleytempletheplant: If you were anyone else, I would have let you go. I would have told you that...

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 23:57:00 -0400

shirleytempletheplant:

If you were anyone else, I would have let you go. I would have told you that I can’t handle you. I would tell you that you are a psychotic bitch. But I can’t leave you. Because I like you. I actually care, I actually want this to work. You just have to stop fucking fighting me everytime I make a fucking move. Let things happen. I’m afraid to tell you things, I’m afraid to tweet, I’m afraid to talk to you, for fear of upsetting you.

I just want you to see how dumb you are being and chill the fuck out. I love you, stop making it harder for me to love you. I’ve already lost everything so I could gain this special something, please let it be worth the pain.

i love you, Carrie Beth Ness.

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 23:52:02 -0400

i love you, Carrie Beth Ness.

i used to say that “no one could treat her better,” but i think i may be wrong. i hope...

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 23:51:43 -0400

i used to say that “no one could treat her better,” but i think i may be wrong. i hope she never finds out.

I’m so… I don’t even know. I feel torn apart. On one side, my mind says to me,...

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 23:46:59 -0400

I’m so… I don’t even know. I feel torn apart. On one side, my mind says to me, “quit trying so hard, she’s just a girl. you’ll find a million other girls in college to bang. quit wasting your time on one girl..” and that’s the manly, “I’m not gay *slaps you on the butt* haha faggot” side of my brain, but then there’s the other side (which has most of the control) that’s like “Jesse. Listen. this girl, she’s amazing, right? yeah, you knew that. don’t let her go. do whatever you can to keep her in your life. she’s good for you, you’ve just got to figure out some kinks in your relationship. just don’t give up on her, man.” But then I come back and am like, “but, she doesn’t even seem to want me anymore. she used to be so in to me, but now it’s like she doesn’t care about me too much. like…like I’m more of a friend that’s drifting away than what she used to think of me as. and it’s killing me. it’s killing me. I don’t want to lose her…”

I thought we would last forever, i truly did. but now i get scared that she’ll leave me again at any moment. I’m so scared. so scared. there’s a million other guys out there that she could have her way with, and I see zero reasons why it should be me. oh god… the thought of it makes my stomach churn. bleh. i feel like i might throw up

i need this girl… I don’t want to lose her, what we have… anything but that.

i wish this were all just a dream. a horrid nightmare..

Wed, 24 Oct 2012 00:21:56 -0400

i wish this were all just a dream. a horrid nightmare..

i’m just a little fucked up, afterall.

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 23:41:41 -0400

i’m just a little fucked up, afterall.